I have felt the loneliness of the heart.

It can only be calmed by the presence of love.

Yet she has left me so long ago, that now

I can only hope to some day rejoin her

To walk again across these lovely hills

And feel again the superb joy of loving her.

There is no joy quite like that of love.

Unselfish love that knows no end or boundaries.

We had that once and its memory is with me.

I shall take it with me when I leave here

Perhaps, someone may come across this love

And enjoy it for another life of happiness.

See this wrinkled face of leather.

Feel these hands worn brittle hard.

Fifty years I have been in the fields

And yet I am just now fifty-five.

At five, I walked by the side of my mother.

Though I did not know it then,

She was pregnant with another girl.

My playground was after hours, at night,

Near the quarters, as they were called—

Raw, unfinished framed buildings,

Even the storage barns looked better.

My mother, my father, my brothers—

All of them called migrant workers,

As I would soon be also called.

No schools, no doctors on call,

Only work, always, always hard work.

My father was already crippled of hands

At only thirty-one years old,

And aged enough to die at forty.

What did my youthfulness lose

On the vineyards to enrich those

Who owned the land and sometimes

Thought they owned all of us.

Gave me that gown split in the rear.

Always left me chilled back there.

That liquid diet they put me on:

Juices, gelatin and LUKEWARM tea—

Two days later, my body gurgled!

 

Gave me a sleeping pill at ten.

Awoke me at midnight sharp,

Just to take those vital sign tests.

Again, at two, four and six o’clock.

Why did they waste that sleeping pill?

 

They Xrayed me so often, I wondered,

Can I be a photogenic X-ray one?

With all the needles stuck in me,

I felt like I might be a pincushion.

 

Each time they changed my linens,

They rolled me about like a bag of clothes.

 

Probably with just as little concern.

Finally, good old “Doc” saved me—

Signing me free to go home.

Now, isn’t my wife the lucky one?

As he sat there upon the mountain top

Looking out at the native lands below,

The GREAT WHITE SPIRIT strode across the sky,

Trailing a great cloak of fleece-white clouds

Shedding tears onto the desolated lands below.

Oh! How great be his sorrow

With lakes and rivers poisoned by man,

With mountains and plains denuded of trees—

That leafy expression of His great love.

The buffalo no longer stomp over the plains

Filling the sky with a thunder of hooves.

Never again come the great flocks of birds

Darkening the sun with an abundance of wings.

Prairie grass no longer grows high enough

For a man to hide himself within.

There are no quiet woods in which to walk a mile.

No clean, sweet stream from which to drink,

Is the mournful cry of the wolf.

And the upland plains are now turned to dust.

Oh, GREAT SPIRIT, is this how it is to end?

Through a night dark

utterly, intensely black

that light will shine.

Always that small

one candle

aglow in the window,

I can see yet

in my mind’s eye.

Will I now

make it home?

This snow, so deep

yet, the candle still

flares bright

in my mind.

It must be there.

 

I am going home.

Look! A light shines.

Oh, happy day, happy me,

That candle burns.

I’m home, I’m home

And here, it’s Christmas.

 

 

 

 

From wounds caused by harvesting,

Dust particles in the sunlight shine

When winds stir high the land.

The soothing ointment of rain,

Winter dressings of pure snow

Heal these cuts before spring comes

When life, again, renews earth’s bosom—

Similar in ways to man’s struggles

To reach the goals we need

To fulfill our hearts’ and souls’ desires

Keeping us feeling wholly alive.

 

The caring heart reaches out

To help a neighbor who hurts,

Or to a stranger to share

A small gift of caring.

Gurus sit on mountaintops

To catch wisdom from the ages

As it drifts by on solar winds.

Misunderstanding the words

And collecting tainted money,

Sugar-coating ancient proverbs,

They often speak of mundane things.

 

 

Sometimes at night

The moonlight glows

And I hear you

Whisper, “Good-bye.”

My soul answers,

“Wait in the light.

I will come soon.”

 

I awoke this morning with a prayer on my lips.

Perhaps that may not seem strange to you,

But it is for me who almost never prays.

Yesterday I left my daughter standing by herself

On a station platform in a far away city,

On a brand new job with a brand new boss,

Where all of her co-workers would be strangers.

As the train slowly pulled away to disappear,

Her cheery smile and airy good-bye wave

Somehow could not erase my feeling

That those lips were trembling,

The eyes were struggling to hold back her tears.

Alone, no friends, no family members near.

Even the telephone in that bare bones apartment

Had not been connected to act as a lifeline.

No longer will she be able to confide

In her mother nightly, or see her on the weekends

To go shopping or just for conversation.

They had always been so inseparable.

Now, perhaps, you may have some idea

Of why I awoke this morning with that prayer.