Four roads to see

For we three

And nine stops to make till I return

Nine times I will read this poem to you

Then, this cake inscribed, you will eat

Start now!!

Spring had arrived at long last

But where were all its brightly colored flames?

The hills were freshly turned to green.

No flowers yet adorned our meadows here.

Perhaps the desert would be more awake.

Up the mountain road, through the pass,

Or to the upper desert parts of our land.

Still, no fresh lovely flowers crossed the sands,

Where would we find this glow of Spring?

Now through the pass to a lower valley

And breaking out into a bright sunny day,

We saw them in such a stunning array.

It seemed as if someone had flown about

And dappled the entire hillside in colors.

Blue and yellow, purple and green abounded.

Here and there a touch of cerise and gold

Creating such a pattern of glowing beauty

Our car seemed to stop by itself

As if it, too, was so impressed, it had to look.

 

Never had our Spring so gloriously begun.

My memory of this is as fresh today

As though it were yesterday not two years ago.

 

I’m shaking the dust from my shoes now

Leaving out on the first freight train west

Look for me in the first open box car

On to St. Louis, Kansas City, Denver.

Is Denver really a mile-high city?

Wow, that is really up there, isn’t it?

Maybe I’ll even make it to spectacular San Francisco.

Do you suppose San Francisco is really true?

But I probably won’t end up at any of those,

More likely some place like Julian, California;

Plain View, Texas; or Elko, Nevada; Butte, Montana.

All jerk-water towns; nothing distinguishing.

Probably won’t be a cowboy, either.  More likely

Repair cars or roofs, or even mop floors.

Fate has a way of changing our woes forever.

What chance have I…a poor ditch digger?

Yet I can’t stay here, never advance.

Roll the dice, Old Fate.  See what we have.

If I don’t like the roll, I’ll roll them again.

So long old town!  Here comes my train.

Wherever it takes me, I’ll go.  Here’s my car.

 

The seniors at the Senior Center loved her

Because she offered an all-encompassing love

That filled the pained void in their hearts,

Made them feel wanted one more time.

Her smile seemed to include her whole face.

It was like being warmed by a light sun.

They could unburden their latest woes,

And feel as though she really cared for them.

She helped with those incessant paper forms;

And she was smart, seemed to know what to do.

Constantly moving to make sure all was well.

 

When she occasionally became emotionally drained,

She came to my little cubicle and closed the door,

Laid her head against a cabinet, closed her eyes

Then just let go as her heart refilled

With another volume of love to continue.

I could see the tired, strained lines

Gradually erase as her heart refilled.

It was a sight I will carry to my grave

As she would almost look magical as her heart

Captured another source from thin air.

Emma, was maybe, a messenger of God, I think.

 

A city of steel, it was called,

Also soot, smoke and grimy dirt.

In winter, sometimes it would snow

But the flakes would all be black.

The safety rules were so lax in mills,

One year more than a thousand men died.

Their widows received one hundred dollars.

Crippling injuries left thousands of men

Dependent on the charity of other workers.

The mill owners never cared for cripples.

Wages just barely covered the necessities.

In 1892, on the streets of Homestead, guards

Opened fire on marching steel workers

Peacefully protesting the working conditions.

A great many marchers were killed or wounded.

Quite often, because of no women’s jobs,

Women would have to sell their bodies

For the cash to feed their children.

No one in authority seemed to care about this.

Pittsburgh remained a city of steel yet.

There were always replacements for those lost.

The women and children were the innocent bystanders

And suffered without any course of help.

Yes!  A city of steel!  Steel hearts, that is.

Why should I need a paper valentine

As long as you are by my side—

Your eyes so brightly brilliant,

Cheeks so smoothly rosebud pink,

A mouth of liquid ruby red,

The joyfulness of childhood glee,

Hair so soft and wavy, walnut brown,

A heart so full of warming love?

What more could I possible ask

Of my very own perfect valentine?

If I cannot be free

Then I wish not to be

I must smell the wind

Touch the sun’s warmth

Walk where few men go

Feel the grass on my toes

To be alone when I think

With friends when I talk

Life is a broken bough

If I cannot live this way

Flames, flames, flames raging, roaring flames

Burning, burning, burning my city, home and people

Smoke, acrid air and ashes, ashes, ashes

Hopes and dreams burning like tinder

Blackened hulks, shattered glass shards

Left behind like a dismembered corpse

Clean up the debris, wash down the streets

Rebuild the structures, restock the shelves

This time leave all the front open

Put no artificial, barriers there again

Forgive, if we can, those who assailed

Tore down that façade we had in place

Yes, we will need help from somewhere

All of us, victim and assailant alike

Have aches to relieve, hates to cleanse

Let us stretch our souls just a bit

Help each other to start out anew

Heal the wounds, rebuild our city

This time, let it shine with love

Since love is such an exciting game,

Could my loving you too much

Incite a riot?

In saying that love is a grand plan,

Is it like saying a piano is grand,

Or a dame is grand,

Or perhaps grand as in grandma?

If you were to fall in love at first sight,

Could it be the site on which you build,

Or a sight that would be just awful?

Some even say that love is just a dream.

If it is like some of mine, that’s scary.

Then, there are those who say that love is blind.

But perhaps, it is the loves who are blind.

As with two good friends of mine,

I believe that loves are blind

Since neither one of them

Realizes that he is not handsome

And she is not lovely.

Real love, for me, appears at whatever time

My smallest granddaughter hugs me tight

And whispers softly, “Grandpa, I love you so.”

Carl thinks of his manual typewriter the way others think of their vintage automobiles.  There are similarities between the machines.  Many car manufacturers no longer exist: Dusenberg, Franklin and Hudson, for example.  Similarly, typewriters manufactured by the names most familiar to Carl: Royal, Olympia and Underwood had long disappeared when Carl bought his Royal typewriter at a garage sale for five dollars.

He likes the fact that his typewriter, like a vintage automobile, is built to withstand punishment.  It is made of steel, not fiberglass, plastic or aluminum.  It has weight like a good machine should.  Carl cleans and oils his typewriter as regularly as he services his car. But repairs are difficult, requiring Carl to perform many of them personally.  Finding replacement parts is an art in itself.

Carl who could have been a threat as a linebacker is built like a grizzly bear and has really big hands. That garage sale find reminds him of the model assigned to him in school when his large hands and heavy touch caused numerous problems with the electric versions popular with the other students.

According to Carl, “Modern keyboards are made for women’s fingers and the dainty touch of a woman’s hand.”

He appreciates the Royal’s mechanics just as he enjoys the feel and maintenance of a car’s engine. Using its metal tabs stops and manual margin controls, and feeling the movement of the carriage from right to left add to his sense of accomplishment as he types. Most of the time, he even values the bell that warns him near the end of a line, though there are times when he disconnects it.

The ringing of that bell and the jerk stop of the carriage he says, “Gives me a moment to think about the next words to be typed.”  This is good, too.  Yet often, his left hand is too fast for Carl to do any musing.  It flies up to hit the carriage return lever, with a movement as automatic as changing gears with a stick shift, while he races toward the finish of his thought.

Carl tried computers, and thinks, “They are okay for saving my final draft.  Rather like pouring a final casting into a mold and keeping the mold, so that more castings might be made.”  His personal foundry for these castings is at the local library where he can hire the use of a computer when the work is finished.

But computers are too quiet, too subliminal for Carl.  Too like the silent airborne flight of a glider.  He admits the CPU does hum like an engine, but “You might as well listen to a circling insect.”  And the clicking of the keyboard is, “Irritating as a woman’s nails tapping on a hard surface.”

Then, too, page changes on a computer can easily be missed, and a writer can’t hold them in his hands until the printer spits it out.  “If you don’t like what you have just typed, you can rip it from the machine.  Can’t get that using a computer,” he says without feeling a fool for pulling out an unfinished page.

The printer paper is auto-fed, another thing Carl doesn’t like.  “A writer can’t get the same feeling of accomplishment you get when you roll yet another sheet into the typewriter.”

Other people praise the computer for the ease of making corrections, but Carl likes to ‘X’ out the parts he doesn’t like.  Substituting the strike through feature of the computer doesn’t compare to, “Repeatedly pounding an X through all the garbage.  Like using a punching bag to blow off steam.  It just feels good. The black scar it leaves on a page is like a black eye that proves the writer has fought for what he believes.”

Carl wants nothing to do with lift-off tapes, white fluid or electronic erasing.  According to Carl, “They just hide the work and make it look too easy.”

“If you are going to work at writing,” he says, “It ought to sound like work.  It ought to feel like work.  And it bloody well ought to look like work.”