We always called her Nervy.

She was not really nervy but,

Always she was in trouble of some kind.

She was too soft hearted for her own good.

Someone was always taking advantage of her.

Three of the homes she lived in while married

Were so run down, old and weather beaten,

It’s a wonder she was allowed to live there.

Her husband left when she needed him the most.

Cancer dogged her life the last few years;

She always tried to hide how much it hurt her.

 

She would give you anything she had if

You said you really needed it.

One brother finally figured how to help her.

He built a concrete block house on his property,

Furnished it so she could look after Mom.

When she finally died of the cancer

My sister, Dorothy, was there and her last words

Were, “I’m coming Mommy. I’m coming.”

(Written for a friend)

Though not one rain cloud is near,

A raindrop slides slowly down my cheek

For I must say good-bye for now,

Even though I just learned how to say

Hello with a bit a love enclosed.

It is, now, too soon we must part.

So little of time and much too short

For silly quarrels and silent looks,

Repressed feelings or angry outbursts.

Too few, those moments of tenderness.

The quiet joys of a love embraced.

That soaring ecstasy of passion

When we chose to shut out the world.

Oh! So soon to have to say good-bye.

If you could only hear my voice,

Or feel the warmth of my light touch.

Dearest love, I shall look forward

To that day when you and I rejoin,

Nevermore to be apart again.

 

If I cannot be free,

Then I wish not to be.

I must smell the wind,

Touch the sun’s warmth,

Walk where few men go,

Feel the grass between my toes,

To be alone when I think,

With friends when I talk.

If I cannot live this way,

Life is as a broken bough.

 

A patterns of shape, colors,

Imaginary hopes, dreams—

Life, like a river, moves ever onward

Gathering all the events of time,

Blending the good, the bad

And the indifferent into one stream.

Only in that one place in its embrace

That holds our individual life

Is there a clearness of sight.

We perceive love, hate, friendship—

All the personal relationships

That make our life worthwhile

As through a clear window.

For others, only sepia brown water

Flows by in the river we know.

Who knows, they might be right.

 

 

This universe is naught but dust

Blown out in one great burst,

So say the scientifically anointed.

If this should really be true,

Is it not evidence of a God—

A Supreme Being exploding that star

To give birth to a universe of life?

Or, is this tale just the scientists’ way

Of letting we mortals know

That only scientists work like gods?

If that is truly so, then why

Is the scientist that I know

Considered a god when I am sure

I know far more than he of God?

 

Perhaps, sitting here just reading

Has filled my mind with such wayward thoughts

As to be considered, at best, as nonsensical.

But then, sometimes nonsensical is correct.

Time and time alone can give us the answer.

Let’s consider whether, or not, it’s nonsensical.

Where shall we start?  At the beginning?

Of course!  But where does it begin?

Let’s start with one of my crazy dreams.

I am usually the hero striding through a crowd

To rescue someone in distress, deathly frightened.

And that’s nonsense, I’m only five foot seven

Weigh only one hundred, thirty-seven pounds

And that’s when I’m soaking wet, clothes and all.

But, in a dream, anything is possible, I think.

The last time I rescued some poor soul,

I woke up in the tangle of my bed clothes.

I remember leaping from a high cliff

Rescuing a young child from a raging river.

Of course, the bed was a terrible mess

With swimming so hard to escape that flow

 

 

 

 

I do want a grandpa,

And maybe even a grandma.

My friend, Bill, has both.

His grandma is so nice.

She let me sit on her lap.

I felt so warm and neat.

While in his grandpa’s attic,

We saw wonderful machines,

And so many other things—

All of them so strange to me.

My friend Tommy’s grandma

Makes such really great cookies.

Ma, where is my grandpa?

 

May I borrow your grandpa

For just a week, or so?

I’ll return him unharmed

And just as good as new.

 

If only there was someplace

We could rent a grandpa,

Or a grandma for a day or two.

Wouldn’t that be really swell

For those of us without either one?

 

What magic spark invests the minds

Of the weaver, who with common thread

Weaves an uncommonly beautiful cloth?

How does that spark enter the mind of men

Like Socrates, Mozart or Edison?

Would the clay from which these came

Be different from John Smith, farmer—

Joe Joseph—laborer, or Jake the tailor?

Why does some very obscure couple

Produce an Elizabeth Barrett Browning

And no one else that can compare?

How did Edgar Allan Poe know which words

Would make The Raven so eternal?

How do Paderewski’s fingers produce

Such glorious sounds on his piano

When mine sound like hail on a roof of tin?

Is there a single spark coursing

Through eternal time that skips

About from place to place to touch

Whomever it may strike by chance, or

Is it somehow programmed to appear

At designated times and places

To remind us of the fragility of “class”?

 

St. Valentine has this special day

So men and women can open up their hearts

To special people, to all the love inside.

Do you see that flutter in the inner most corner?

That is just the nervousness I feel

When I try to tell you how deeply I feel

My love, what you mean to me.

I can only hold on to you when my heart

Tries to show how deeply my love of you goes.

I would have you by my side all my life

If you will only let me stay and hold on to you.

 

 

Her smile was glorious and bright

Like the first light of dawn on a mountain top.

Light sparkling in her eyes always reminded me

Of starlight reflecting in a clear mountain lake.

The bloom in her cheeks was matched only

By the soft blush of a rose covered with dew.

 

When she touched my hand, even lightly,

My heart would quiver in sheer ecstasy.

Walking in fields of clover and violets

Was always my favorite way to spend a day

As long as she was with me all the way,

My heart will always be hers until I leave.