In this mock-celeb world

Where any random moment

May stream a flicker of acclaim

Meteor-like across the world,

How difficult must be the afterwards

Of a long life for an ever wannabe

Who remains only a once-was?

 

What pain comes from unrealized

Dreams in that long life outside

The clamor and light?

 

What anger comes with the permanence

Of an error reported and remembered

Merely for its wrongness

Though each ripple of memory

Tortures the scars left behind?

 

What anguish comes with the echoes

Of destruction reverberating

Interrupting the otherwise unremarkable.

 

Repeating every hour, then day after day

Into yearly anniversaries,

Pinpointed in every decade forever,

‘Lest we forget’—

As if the witnesses and victims

Every could?

 

 

#tossawaythecouldhaveshouldhavesday

 

 

 

 

 

The padlock is orange with rust

As is the hasp from which it hangs.

This scabulous crusting

Speaks of age

Of many rainy days

And dew-filled nights

Of solitude and sentry.

 

But from the dark keyhole

Nature has ventured forth—

New leaves, tiny Spring leaves

Seeking light, sunshine,

And a freedom

The lock would deny.

 

 

#cheerupthelonelyday

 

To fly to other worlds

Where even the language

Reminds me of no past,

To wander unfamiliar roads

Relieved of the possibility

Of confronting familiar faces,

To laugh and sing and dance

As I will, without a memory

Of why I was and what

Others were to me,

To be, at last, free

To be the who I really am—

Ah, yes, this is the truth

Behind  my wanderlust.

 

#independenceday

#july4th

When he won his wings

The air force took his photograph

His hair evenly dark

Against the pale background

The pose catching the slow and easy smile

His sister knew so well,

His lips still soft with youth

And the promise of tomorrow

His eyes shining

Like wingtips touched by the sun.

He was so proud

He had won his dream.

 

Was it a year or a little more

Before the next photo came?

The camera recording

His promotion to captain.

Another proud moment.

 

Yet his sister cried when it arrived

For his hair was brushed with gray.

His lips so straight and tightly held,

His eyes dark shadows

That carried no memory

Of joyful, quick laughter.

 

Two photographs side by side

A war in between

Two photographs side by side

Beside them where they sat

His sister’s broken heart

 

 

 

#cameraday

(ala Bessie Smith, unfinished)

So, here I am once again

Digging in the dirt

Dragging my sorry butt

Down in the same old rut.

Done lost my way

In a world of hurt.

I thought this time

You would be true.

But here I am alone and blue.

I thought I’d learned better

Until your returning letter.

Yet, here I am once again

Digging in the dirt

Dragging my sorry butt

Down in the same old rut.

 

 

#makemusicday

Wind whistles through bone

The flute of the long dead

Music from another time

When lost people danced here

Beside hearths now buried

Beneath the desert sand

 

I imagine I hear their voices

Their songs circling

Within my head

Melting my staid posture

I sway as if blown

By the whistling wind

But in truth, I dance

In this ancient space

 

#globalwindday

Jade green marbled

With fine white veins

 

Ruffled in tiers

White

Albino

Tiger paw

Slapping at stubborn retaining walls

 

#worldoceanday

The house where he slept is gone—

A barren lot, now, in the dawn.

So where is he,

The child whose memory is haunting me?

 

With his skin, like a turnip left too long

Out of ground in the sun,

The last of twenty-five, born without a song,

Without a place to run,

The hunger shrieked from his eyes,

Despair in his sighs,

In hand-me-downs that never fit,

Never still, ever moving, he would sit.

His fingers nibbled up our treasures

For heroin, pills and acid cures

For brothers, uncles-who-weren’t, and mayhap fathers

Who spilled their deaths into the morning papers.

 

I required him day after day to stay

Till all his stolen prizes on the desktop lay

And day by day his take grew less and less

As though only stolen to confess.

One day escaping when I forgot the game,

He returned, though I did not call his name,

Offering two paper clips and a rubber band:

All of that day’s contraband.

A little praise, a little gentle care

I could easily spare

For hungry eyes and a true smile

That lost for once its former guile.

 

The house where he slept is gone–

A barren lot, now, in the dawn.

So where is he

The child of hungry eyes,

Child refugee

With hungry eyes?

 

#worldinternationalchildrensday

Charlie was always unreasonable, even as a child. He was just that determined to be different. But the most outrageous thing he ever did was to ride the telegraph line on that bike of his.

Martha took his picture as he balanced high above the wheatfields of some Kansas town. She had a post card made of it and sent it home with “Wish you were here. Ha, ha!” written on the back.

It’s truly ridiculous. There he is (Charlie, I mean) wearing a top hat and tails. He’s got on a button-down shirt and he’s wearing a pearl stud in his tie. She caught him true enough, in spite of the foggy morning, with his hands stuck out for balance and all dressed up, perched on his unicycle peddling from one pole to the next on the telegraph wire strung at the edge of someone’s farm in the middle of God forsaken Kansas, would you believe it? Charlie was always the most outrageous, daring person I ever did know.

 

#NationalRoadTripDay

It was hard to hate cousin Carl.

There was no evil in the man.

 

He never held any job for long;

Money slipped through his fingers

Like rain water down a grate—

Washing so many false hopes to the sea.

 

He was like a sweet dog

Who could not be trained:

A rambunctious, eager golden retriever—

Ever willing to play, to show affection

But never able to obey rules

For more than a second or two;

And never recognizing what was bad

Or harmful, until too late;

And then quickly forgetting.

 

It is not easy to live each day

With such a man,

 

But he is no easier to hate

Than a loving, vulnerable

Over-eager dog.

 

#UnitedNationsInternationaldayoflivingtogetherinpeace